The world of work has recently left me feeling confused and angry. Many rules that should have been strictly followed are now being violated by a handful of junior staff for their own gain.

My heart feels heavy when I think about this situation. Some of the younger staff in my office seem impatient to wait for their turn to reach higher positions. They make various moves to seize any available opportunity by violating rules and ethics.

I feel the generational gap widening (I’m Generation X and they’re millennials). This wouldn’t happen under proper governance. The problem is that I work with the top leader who allows all the cheating to occur. He has formed his own circle of loyal and obedient staff, primarily to further his and his group’s ambitions for self-enrichment. Since he can’t fire other colleagues and me, he systematically undermines our roles.

Corruption, nepotism, and collusion are chronic diseases in my country. All levels of government suffer from them. Those who work by the rules are left behind, considered stupid and old-fashioned.

I discussed this issue with several friends who hold similar positions to me. They were experiencing the same thing. Despair.

There was nothing I could do but let the situation change on its own. It might take a tsunami to destroy, or a team of angels to send them straight to hell.

Maintaining this feeling of disappointment, neglect, and disrespect was indeed not easy. Fortunately, I always consoled myself by doing positive things and convincing myself that all negative deeds would be punished. I didn’t need to be too sad or angry.

However, maintaining a positive mood in such an environment was no easy task. Such a dark atmosphere seemed to shorten my lifespan. I was certain this feeling wasn’t due to the sensitivity of aging. It was a rejection from my pure heart.