Today is the last day of Ramadan. A hadith mentions that two different groups of people respond to the end of Ramadan. The happy group and the sad group.

The group of Muslims who are happy to part with the month of Ramadan are those who did not get blessings from the fasting they did. According to them, fasting harsh their lives.

The other group, the sad one, is likely the people who got blessings. They feel sad because the month of full rewards from prayer and fasting will soon end. They are even worried about not meeting the month of Ramadan next year.

Where am I currently?

I am in the middle of both. I feel relieved that Ramadan will soon be over. Balancing office work while fasting and managing household tasks in a sleepy (because of night prayers) is quite challenging.

I am in my 50s, and my stamina isn’t what it used to be; I feel utterly exhausted. However, the promise that Allah will erase all my sins and grant my prayers is what gives me strength to keep going until the last day of Ramadan.

I will miss Ramadan once it is over, but I will not ask Allah to extend it. Human nature cannot fast for more than 30 days continuously. Allah knows my limitations, and so do most people on earth.

I reflect on my life during Ramadhan. I learn to control my ambitions and be modest in my life and thoughts. I sleep very soundly day and night like a baby (that’s one of the physical benefits of fasting that is my overthinking has gone). Ramadhan has updated me.

I promise to become the best version of myself until I meet next year’s Ramadan. But, If it never comes, you know that deep in my heart, I was waiting for Ramadan. He only did not allow me to be with Ramadan anymore.