August, September, and October have just passed. These are the hottest months in my region, with frequent risk of land fires and worsening weather. In November, it rained, not heavily, but enough to cool the earth.

Many say November doesn’t bring many conveniences. We’re suggested to continue what we’ve been doing, tending to our work, but never asking for more. But I won’t dwell on that. At my age, what more could I want than good health and an abundant livelihood to meet my daily needs?

While mowing my small garden, I remembered how God has blessed me thus far. He’s allowed me to have a family with two intelligent sons, pursue higher education, and earn an income that exceeds the standard of living.

My life has indeed become increasingly lonely. I don’t have friends because I’ve been busy with my own independent activities outside of office hours. That’s my own choice, coming from within. I can join a group of women my age in my neighborhood. I’ve tried socializing, but I haven’t gained anything spiritually and even feel uncomfortable. At home, I can do everything alone, stay productive, and it can improve my mood.

This November, the weather is still hot outside. It rains occasionally, and the air cools down for a while. December might be like that, too. Continuing to live as I did yesterday is a choice, one I wholeheartedly embrace. In it, I find happiness and serenity, even if I sometimes feel tired. Such is the life of those who choose their own environment, hiding from the crowd.

Actually, I have a few friends I’d like to contact, but I’m hesitant; they might also want to be alone on the weekends. I don’t like to bother them, even if it’s just by calling or inviting them to meet and chat at a cafe. I assume they’re like me, even though our tendencies are unlikely to be exactly the same.

One more thing, it’s hard to leave the house once I’ve entered it. There’s a strong magnet here. My home is a nest where I feel both comfortable and bored.

Have you ever felt bored alone at home but didn’t want to go anywhere else or change yourself to be more open to a different atmosphere?